five. I'm going down

My body shut down on me

I was so scared

Borderline sleep paralysis, legitimately sleep paranoia

Alarms rang in my head

It felt so realistic

Like I was inhaling smoke in a fire

On the outside you wouldn't even be able to tell

I get quiet

I suffer in silence

For 40 seconds?

4 seconds?

Hard to tell

I sleep next to my mum every night

We say it's because she needs me,

but I still get scared to sleep in my own room

I thought I was going to die

I snapped out of it and everything was okay

I'm alright

Just need you to hold me

Signing off,

burnt toast sweet tea;